újra kell olvasnom Tony Morrisont. alapvetően határozta meg a huszas éveim elejét, volt egy idő, amikor az összes könyvét olvastam, és valójában miatta iratkoztam be az angol szakra is - már a felvételin közöltem, hogy ha, akkor belőle fogok diplomadolgozatot írni (nem végeztem el, bár imádtam oda járni). most meg kinyitom az idézetes füzetemet - így 20 évvel ezelőttről, - és újra olvasom, amiket leírtam, még mindig érzem, hogy mi fogott meg akkor belőle, és még mindig megérint, és van üzenete. persze az is lehet, hogy ma már más érint meg, nem teljesen ugyanaz, de akkor is van számomra még mindig üzenete.
"Violet újból megtanulta: hogy a nevetés halálosan komoly dolog. Szászorta bonyolultabb és komolyabb, mint a könnyek." (Tony Morrison: Jazz)
" ... You think he belongs to you because you want to belong to him. Hagar, don't. It's a bad word, 'belong'. Especially when you put it wtih someboday you love. Love shouldn't be like that. Did you ever see the way the clouds love a mountain? They circle all around it; sometimes you can't see the mountain for the clouds. But you know what? You go up top and what do you see? His head. The clouds never cover the head. His head pokes through, because the clouds let him; they don't wrap him up. They let him keep his head up high, free, with nothing to hide him or bind him. Hear me, Hagar?" He spoke to her as he would to a very young child. "You can't own a human being. You can't lose what you can't own. Suppose you did own him. Could you really love somebody who was absolutely nobody without you? You really want somebody like that? Somebody who falls apart when you walk out the door? You don't, do you? And neither does he. You're turning your whole life to him. Your whole life, girl. And if it means so little to you that you can just give it away, hand it to him, then why should it mean any more to him? He can't value you more than you value yourself." (Tony Morrison: Song of Solomon)
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